Atticus

Thinking of you is a poison I drink often

Breaking me down from the inside out

Lying with you's an addiction I can't quit

I tell myself no but my body tells me yes

 

And I knew it from the moment I first tasted your lips

When I look into your eyes I'm hypnotised

 

Oh you're no good for me but 

I can't breathe when we're not close

I can't decide what's hurting me the most your ghost or that

I have come too far to turn back now

 

The way that I feel isn't right, isn't wrong, I'm just helpless

I'll regret if I do, I'll regret if I don't, so what use is this at all

I know I've made a mistake but you make me scream either way

And I can't turn back time

 

And I knew it from the moment I first tasted your lips

When I look into your eyes I'm hypnotised

 

Oh you're no good for me but 

I can't breathe when we're not close

I can't decide what's hurting me the most your ghost or that

I have come too far to turn back now

 

And I knew it from the moment I first tasted your lips

When I look when I look into your eyes I'm hypnotised

Blame

Chasing you round in circles

Over and over

Reaching out for your touch 

I’m lost and never found

 

And as I sit with my makeup on

Ready to go out alone I think of what I could’ve done to save this

 

If it’s not me, and it’s not you

Then who are we to blame

And it’s not fair you’re never there so you don’t feel this pain

 

I’m talking to myself again

Slept on the sofa

Just to hear the key turn

And you walk in 

 

‘Cause I heard you

Whisper someone else’s name in your sleep

But it seems to be getting kind of quiet round here

 

If it’s not me, and it’s not you

Then who are we to blame

And it’s not fair you’re never there so you don’t feel this pain

If it’s not me, and it’s not you

Then who are we to blame

I trusted you, I trusted myself now we’ve lost this game 

 

I never wanted to play

I never wanted to play  

I never wanted to play  

 

If it’s not me, and it’s not you

Then who are we to blame

And it’s not fair you’re never there so you don’t feel this pain

If it’s not me, and it’s not you

Then who are we to blame

I trusted you, I trusted myself, now we’ve lost this game 

 

This game

Seasons

Wake me up in the morning

when the sun shines through

and the birds are calling out to you

Take me back 

to the summer

Where the sky is blue

and the breeze is tickling you

 

I wanna take it back

To the way it used to be

I wanna love like I used to love

And i wanna dream like I used to dream

I wanna take it back

just a few seasons

So you can hold me in your arms 

and I can breathe your love

 

Sweet red wine in the evening

Have a glass or two

but don’t let it run to your head my darling

or you’ll forget

the things you promised me

or you'll forget

 

That you said we’d take it back

To the way it used to be

So we can love like we used to love

And we can dream like we used to dream

I wanna take it back

just a few seasons

So you can hold me in your arms 

and I can breathe your love… oh oh 

 

Your… love…

Ohh.. 

 

I wanna take it back

To the way it used to be

So we can love like we used to love

And we can dream like we used to dream

I wanna take it back

just a few seasons

So you can hold me in your arms 

and I can breathe your love

 

Oh I wanna breathe your love

Everything

Close your eyes

Wait for the nightmares to run and hide

And hold your breath

Soon all your fears will fade away

We all have our bad days

I out of anyone know

Things will get better

You can always rely on me, I will be there

Standing in the storm

The lightning won’t scare me away 

I will hold you 

Forever if you want me to

I will love you 

With everything I can give

There’s no need

To suffer in silence in the dark

Can’t you see the moonlight

It’s the smile of the night watching over you

Stars are shining through your window

We all have our bad days

I out of anyone know

Things will get better

You can always rely on me, I will be there

Standing in the storm

The lightning won’t scare me away 

I will hold you 

Forever if you want me to

I will love you 

With everything I can give

Close your eyes

Wait for the nightmares to run and hide

Close your eyes

Soon all your fears will fade away

Ropes

It’s happened again

I let another one fool me

As I lie with my head in the sky 

carelessly watching the world go by

 

And the memories are bleeding 

ink into the walls

through the cracks they’re seaping

there to remain

 

Though you’re not in the room

your shadow’s still creeping

Though you’re not cradling me 

your love is still fixed upon my lips

 

How do I burn the ropes you tied

I can’t light the fire though I’ve tried

The spark it flickers and fades away

Then why did our love go up in flames

 

I thought it was real

the way it felt when you held me

As we climbed up a tree and we sheltered from the rain

I’d never felt so safe

 

Though you’re not in the room

your smell it still lingers

Though you’re not cradling me

your kiss is still fixed upon my skin

 

How do I burn the ropes you tied

I can’t light the fire though I’ve tried

The spark it flickers and fades away

Then why did our love go up in flames

 

Oh oh oh 

 

How do I burn the ropes you tied

How do I burn the ropes you tied

How do I burn the ropes you tied

How do I burn the ropes you tied

Eyes

Let’s go to the river

and we’ll fall for the last time in love

You’ve already given me much, 

much more than I deserve

Why do I deserve this

 

I am found when I look I your eyes

I’m already blinded by your love turn down the lights

And oh it took me far too long to realise

All I ever wanted, I needed

was you and I

 

Let’s go to the meadow

and we’ll dance in the moonlight

As the rain taps on our shoulders 

and trickles down our cheeks as we come close

and you kiss me 

 

I am found when I look I your eyes

I’m already blinded by your love turn down the lights

And oh it took me far too long to realise

All I ever wanted, I needed

was you and I

 

And I keep falling for you

I keep falling for you

 

I am found when I look I your eyes

I’m already blinded by your love turn down the lights

And oh it took me far too long to realise

All I ever wanted, I needed

was you and I

Louder

Tracing the ink on his skin with my fingers

Rain blowing wild outside

And although I didn’t feel scared to begin with 

He made me feel safe by the way he

wouldn’t let me dance alone

 

We both know we committed a sin

But we never wanted to end

The beautiful mess we got in 

 

And anytime you touch my hand

Anytime you catch my eye, I

Sink a little bit deeper

And anytime you kiss my neck

the voices in my head

get a little bit louder

 

Telling me no, no, no, no not again

 

The faint smell of cigarettes in his breath 

when he came close

somehow made me feel warm

And the cheap wine

that we weren’t supposed to be drinking 

Oh my God what were we thinking how’d we 

end up like this

‘Cause anytime you touch my hand

Anytime you catch my eye, I

Sink a little bit deeper

And anytime you kiss my neck

the voices in my head

get a little bit louder

 

Telling me no, no, no, no not again

Telling me no, no, no, no not again

Telling me no, no, no, no not again

 

‘Cause anytime you touch my hand

Anytime you catch my eye, I

Sink a little bit deeper

And anytime you kiss my neck

the voices in my head

get a little bit louder

 

Telling me no, no, no, no not again

Treehouse

Let's go

Let's run away

Before we change our minds

Before it's too late

I wanna build a treehouse

With no electricity

Just a walk away, only a walk away from the beach

There'd be a hole in the roof

So we could watch the stars

And we could feel the rain soak our skin

And maybe you'll come with me and you'll be by me

By my side

And I wished

I wished my life away

I wanted to be older

I wanted to love you

Properly

Like they do in the movies

And now I know that it's not as good as it seems and I'm too young

And I'm too keen to see

That this isn't a fairytale

And lately I've been numb towards you

And I've been

Down and blue like I used to

And we've been 

Fighting over nothing

It's not the same 

As it was this time a year or so ago

So let's go

Let's run away

Let's go 

Let's run away

Before we change our minds

Before it's too late

I wanna build a treehouse

Fairly close to the sea

Just a walk away

Only a walk away from the beach

There'd be a hole in the roof

So we could watch the stars

And we could feel the rain soak our skin

All lyrics written by Isobel Holly Pinder ©2020

 
 
 
 
 
 
 

Photography by Ciara Nolan

©Isobel Holly 2020

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